It's the self-awareness for me! I really love how you broke down the what/why/how of your various methods to overcome challenges associated with your difficult relationship with hope. Of course, you are FAR from alone in this, but what's inspiring is that you've done some damn hard work to better understand the relationship, it's sources and potential solutions.
Life is full of such turmoil. Knowing that we are capable of building positive experiences can bring solace, and yet the responsibility of having to build positivity in a tsunami of negative/traumatic experiences can be quite depressing. That's actually why my only goal for the new year has been to really magnify love. I want to repair what's broken in my relationship with hope, and to inspire/encourage others in the same ways you've inspired/encouraged me.
Thanks always, Jamie!